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Contrite is what he feels above anything else, heartily sorry for coveting a
person so vulnerable—though unbeknownst to anyone including perhaps the person
herself;
Rockefeller Falk—admitting to rank inclinations
and motives reprehensible—has confessed as much to his father (omitting specifics),
then disclosed un-chivalrous
thoughts (not yet misdeeds) to his irate betrothed.
‘You want to do
what; with whom; and why tell me, you perverted scumbag BASTARD!?’
Why defy his parent,
why sabotage the trust of his expectant fiancé?
A laboratory
prop, is why, a hapless, witless specimen in suspension like some drug-dulled,
stock-still hummingbird, vital yet immobilized, beautiful yet bizarre, uncannily
disengaged yet evocatively connected, human, as she is, whatever her mental
limitations, prettily proportioned and beguilingly endowed, if lacking in the
rudiments of effective communication, mute, for all he knows, not deaf but
equivocally receptive, sightless rather than blind, her eyes kept shut
habitually, nourished intravenously her taste buds no doubt stunted, unaware,
perchance, of fragrant scents or noxious smells, capable, nonetheless, of
pleasure-pain sensitivity throughout her whole integument—a glimmering expanse of
picture-perfect
pores, luring him in a manner he resists without conviction,
coaxing him to admire, enticing him to transgress—touch, stroke, fondle—inviting
him to do so, or such is his conceit whenever in
her unguarded presence... as he is now... a sack of groceries clutched in one
hand, a sound unit in the other... taking up the position he assumes on each and every visit... seating himself on a stool at the hovering figure’s side... shoulders
squared with her waist so he can scan left to right her unclad anatomy, which is
“dreamily informed”, he imagines, of his proximity, this the true narcotic of
Rockefeller's singular compulsion, this sensing he is near—albeit conveyed by
something ineluctable, something vague, something tauntingly undefined, leaving him
to intuit wants, needs, and urges—while staving off desire, yet forging a relationship that jeopardizes wedlock,
filial duty, and sanity itself; for who save the son of a lunatic would
endeavor to reclaim a soul lost so irretrievably?
Affixing speakers to each corner of the hover platform’s base, careful not to
obstruct its intricate air stream network, Rockefeller encodes this evening’s
serenade:
‘Adagio for Strings’ by Samuel Barber.
A surround-sound swell of violins flows seamlessly, melancholically, to saturate
the space around Yvette, 'Yvette Nguyen’ the name affixed to instructions that
Rockefeller follows... with deviations... with disregard for certain
prohibitions he has labeled inhumane... outraged as he is by his father's
callousness with respect to human life... captive as he is to utter
fascination with that human life's potential... while noting:
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a subtle
change in breathing
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an even
subtler motion of her graceful neck, vertebrae elongated
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head, with
a minute swivel, tilting side to side, as if each ear is taking turns
discerning the melodious vibrations
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fingers,
too, respond, ever so slightly spreading, their tips afloat with scarcely
perceptible ripples
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then,
dispelling any doubt that the music is affecting her, Yvette, with the
strings’ crescendo, lifts her crescent-moon-shaped eyebrows
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lungs
expand, hold still for a pregnant instant, then prolong an exhalation,
tantamount to a hushed but heartfelt sigh
any, or all of
which the watcher might well be projecting, rapt as Rockefeller is by the
sleeper’s supine pose, baffled by Yvette’s unorthodox existence, troubled by
the ethics, worried about his role, agreeing, as he has, to continue where his
father left off, fulfilling out-standing orders (if postponing those coming
in), impressed with himself for managing affairs with the utmost efficiency, deciphering technical manuals a
programmer might find daunting, all accomplished solo without benefit of his
father’s intercession—though guidance, on occasion, has been imparted from afar when
Remington chose to be rational; several crisis calls, to date, having been
placed,
but overall the transition has gone quite straightforwardly—apart from
unauthorized tampering with prize pet Yvette, renewable resource for stem cells,
unfertilized eggs, and wistful nostalgia (Yvette Nguyen the namesake of an
experiment, a veritable triumph long gone by, that Remington, evidently, never could
replicate).
Proceeding with his exercise in sensory education, aids spread out on a tabletop, set as for a banquet, Rockefeller pulls
from a carousel an essence-oil
vial marked ‘ROSE’ , removes
its stopper, dunks in a
Q-tip, extracts it, blots away the excess, and conducts it to his subject’s
oriental nose, waving it back and forth in front of jointly dilated nostrils.
Savoring or indifferent? Impossible to discern—except by someone prone to
wishful-thinking optimism, someone predisposed to having an effect, someone
strangely bent on resurrecting verve.
HONEYSUCKLE ,
CARDAMOM ,
CLOVE ,
EUCALYPTUS ,
WINTERGREEN ,
NUTMEG —distillations waft
in sequence—PEPPERMINT ,
LILAC ,
EDELWEISS ,
PINE —each
whiff a novelty, each a first, he supposes, for the isolated sinuses heretofore
deprived of non-antiseptic smells, feasting on each aromatic scent, he presumes
from little evidence, grateful to be inundated, he concludes from trifling signs:
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a hitch
between each lengthy inhalation
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a parting
of the lips, albeit oh-so slight
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eyes
imperceptibly
stirring, under opalescent lids
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heartbeat,
shown by a vein at the throat, accelerated possibly
subject, one
and all, to interpretations vague, depending upon their interpreter’s
undisclosed
agenda, Rockefeller struggling to explain his core motivation... while making
the transition from sense of smell to taste.
Peeling the foil from an amaretto truffle, he pokes a hole through its shell to
the gooey inner mass, daubs his index finger then transfers it to Yvette’s
unwary mouth, touching it to the gap between her upper and lower lips, gratified
when her tongue creeps through to sample the appetizing liquor, shocked to feel
her teeth of a sudden scrape his fast-retreating flesh—rescued from
surprisingly aggressive, now masticating jaws.
NEVER FEED YVETTE BY OTHER THAN
INTRAVENOUS
MEANS
Dos
and don’ts already disregarded give young Rockefeller pause. What dare he ignore,
what might cause damage if not rigorously heeded? Could a mere exhibit ever be
expected to realize full humanity? Partial humanity? Any humanity whatsoever?
For what is true humanity for a person "concocted" rather
than born?
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