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It
has been a pins-and-needles interlude for Sam since returning from Palo Alto. If
the psyche has a funny bone, his has been pummeled—repeatedly—every time his
thoughts so much as gravitate toward ‘Jo’, her pregnancy making an impact that
paralyzes reason, brain, alongside libido, gone
powerlessly numb, jealousy, unexpectedly, applying an almost constant pressure,
compelling him to entertain a host of unrealistic plots, in which he illogically
manages, somehow, to “get the girl".
Vainglorious enough to suppose himself superior, insecure enough to keep from
acting on any of his “heroic” impulses, Sam debates the wisdom of pursuing a
hopeless cause, acknowledging it is futile to covet another’s fiancée, conceding
it is foolhardy to crave another’s unborn child. So why is Jo’s condition as
enticing as her sexuality? Are expectant mothers more desirable,
their expectant mates to be disregarded? Could the very fact that Sam is not the father fan his
enthusiasm? Did conception outside of wedlock render a woman more alluringly vulnerable,
hapless therefore susceptible to being rescued, redeemed, reinstated, her compromised honor—should a white knight
intercede—chivalrously restored? For such are Sam’s pretensions when he hatches
sundry scenarios, casts himself as Lancelot, Jo as a puffed-up Guinevere, her illegitimate baby
a test of pure benevolence...
... her flamingo-pink Mercedes the hallmark of his hopes, upon spotting it parked
on Page Street a block from his apartment.
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