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He is not expected home but Dad, in fact, arrives: in his Jeep (retrieved from
the airport’s long-term parking lot), in his range clothes (pulled from a duffle
bag kept inside the four-wheel-drive vehicle), in the morning (just before
sunup, cocks clearing their patriarchal gullets), in defeat (trail cold as that
coyote's after it slaughtered last spring’s lamb). He opens the front screen
door then the front door itself (both unlocked), pushing the latter gently (so
it does not clunk), using his heel to catch the former (so it does not slam
behind him). Flo, of course, will not have slept through the roaring engine’s
approach, conspicuous as the freight-train cloud of dust raised from the
mile-away main road. Ears like a nervous jackrabbit’s (sensitivity-wise) hers
will have also detected the ginger gait of her husband’s soft-soled boots, first
on the wooden porch, next over the living room’s Navaho rug, lastly
crisscrossing the earthenware tiles of a farmer’s-daughter kitchen—ample, plenty
of counter space, pots and pans galore, hung with a mind to easy access like a
percussionist’s rack of cymbals (pitiful insofar as they see such meager service, Dad
and Florence childless, cooking done solely for themselves). Pulverizing coffee beans
with an antique hand-cranked grinder, Dad commences the ritual he or Flo
(whomever rises earliest) performs daily—whenever he is there, his times away
less frequent since committing to semi-retirement. Would that he had retired
altogether and spared himself this frustration, this growing sense of
embarrassment at his singular non-success.
Two days
maximum work has dragged on now for a week. Must be losing it. Whatever knack
I had, age has done it in—age and alcohol, no doubt, conspiring to blur my
vision. What could be more pathetic than a blind private eye? There must be something somewhere I
stupidly overlooked.
Dad
listens to the drip, drip, wheeze, gurgle, drip percolating under windows facing
east, dawn transforming a pristine Utah sky from midnight blue to mourning-dove
grey. Motions carried out sans turning on a light recommend one less and less:
setting out mugs, a pair of spoons, a pint of half & half—the refrigerator’s
flash (on briefly opening and closing) like a strobe, eyes grateful once returned
to the semi-darkness; or semi-brightness, in deference to the trend, revealing
Dad’s flannel shirt to be a checkerboard of brown and beige, harbingers of the
rusty red and orange it will become when day finally breaks, spreads itself
like an egg yolk sunny side up poked by a hungry man’s fork, chores ahead,
ranching not a suitable occupation if your rise-and-shine comes late—Ranch O’Rourke’s
for-pleasure more than for-profit status notwithstanding.
Luxuriating in the knowledge that her man at last is home, having missed the
sight, sound, touch, the very smell and taste of him, Flo prolongs her
under-the-bedclothes stretch, ironing out the kinks in her forty-two-year-old
body, anticipating the love that radiates from his, in proximity, older, greyer,
burlier next to matronly, sun-browned, slim, strength juxtaposed to solidity,
handsomeness next to homeliness—drab, if truth be told, outside the gaze of her
beloved, whose Emerald Isle eyes testify to a beauty few would vouchsafe
noteworthy, especially Flo herself, honest about her attributes, a pretty face
admittedly not among them, which makes her all the more appreciative of Dad’s
robust good-looks, proud to be the envy of many a comely rival, unassumingly
flattered by her husband’s sure fidelity.
Scent of brewing coffee, muffled sneeze of genteel spouse, the pop of toast, a
rooster’s crow, ravens on the rooftop squabbling, wind chimes tinkling
random riffs amid the numerous back-porch bird feeders, faucet leaking (she will add
that to the modest list of things for Dad to fix), titmouse chirp, horse whinny—Lancelot or Godiva (?)—the silo’s rusted-out weathervane
creaking in a modest wind,
peeps from chicks, the smell of rumpled sheets under woolen blankets not yet
stale but musty (she will air them prior to sharing them), odors from her
nightgown—laundry overdue—odors from her person; should she take a shower, or
join his nibs directly?
Padding from their bedroom in a pair of buckskin slippers, undone hair (from its
daytime bun) cascading behind her robe, Flo assumes her place at the breakfast
nook’s undersize table, acknowledging her helpmate with nary a word or nod,
bracketing her mug with both hands as he tips the pot and pours, feeling heat
pervade the cream-colored china filled to its very brim with the aromatic brew,
comforting, calming, familiar, unwaveringly delectable.
As
a rising sun smelts silver / smelts gold from Dad’s / from Flo’s scalp
respectively ♫ make new friends, but keep the old ♫ affirms their
promised continuity, she to him
and he to her synonymous with lifelong dedication, companionship to the end,
till death the two does part, vows reaffirmed in silence, gestures ample
idioms; thoughts Dad might relate, Flo already
knows; sentiments Flo might voice, Dad usually can prognosticate; quiet—save their
simultaneous slurping—for him / for her suffices.
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