Wednesday, November 12th,
at 6:15 in the P.M. Im going home! Everything has happened. I talked to both my
parents on the phone. I was so happy I cried. They did, too. They said they loved me and
that was all that counted.
I can hardly wait until tomorrow. Thats when theyll be
here. Tomorrow! Everyone is very pleased, even Sister Dana. I thought shed maybe
make it hard for me to say goodbye but shes been wonderful. So has Sister Zoe.
Ill miss them. Ill miss everybody.
Im all packed. Theres nothing more to do. Ive given
out my presents even. Except for Julians. That parts sad. Hes gone. His
mother came and got him. I was watching from my window as they drove away.
I hit him. I feel terrible when I think about it. He made me remember.
I dont know how, exactly. It was all a little strange. He had these nightmares and I
was in them, and I had daydreams that he was in, too. How he got there with me, or I got
there with him, I dont think I could tell. But hes the one who made it clear
to me just who it is I am, though he was nasty about it like he always is when he thinks
that someone likes him. And now hes gone. Ill never be able to thank him or
tell him that Im sorry. After Benjamin, Julians the best friend I ever had.
And I didnt even know it.
This will be the last page of my journal. Im keeping it along
with some drawings and with Sister Danas Bible and Julians chess set, which he
left for me with Sister Zoe. Im going to remember this place, and especially Julian,
for always. For always never ends or dies.